We hold these truths to be self evident...

* If it's worth having, it's worth working for (otherwise you won't truly value it, or truly own it)
* It's simultaneously impossible and inevitable to "Be Yourself"
* I don't believe you can predict the future
* Somehow, things always work out. God is my somehow.
* God is the exterior designer, and the interior decorator
* I am stronger than I think. Just do the reps...
* I need to trust myself more. I need to make sure I have my back.I need to have faith that I have my back.
* I compare myself a lot to other people/unrealistic expectations
* Sometimes what the situation calls for is raking the carpet. Thank you Chris Brown.
* I am a turtle in a lot of ways... - I plod along ( no real leaps and bounds)
                                                 - I withdraw when threatened/uncomfortable
                                                 - I keep going
                                                 - I don't have room for other people in my shell
* I need to choose what I say to myself and make it helpful
* I should always set a high standard for myself ( don't accept 2nd best)
e.g. Good Quality Bras, Always make an effort to dress well, Work out my goal/what I want and then the BEST way of getting it
* I still have the school outcast in my head and heart (posh pills)
          - I "know" that people don't want to spend time with me, I am tolerated at best
          - I "know" I am and always will be chosed last to be on the team
* Focus on the moment and be IN the present!!!!!!!!!!
* I am insecure
* I apologise a lot
* I get defensive easily
* I am jealous
* I am a performer/attention seeker
* I don't deal well with rejection
* I am impulsive
* I take things personally/to heart
* I am scared
* I am judgemental
* I am emotional
* I am insightful
* I am caring
* I am an action person
* I am a hard worker
* I am generous
* I am brave
* I am funny
* I am a leader
* I am a problem solver
* I am resourceful
* I am a home body
* I don't like skinny jeans, leggings, tights, white pants
* I like poetry
* I like words
* I like quotes
* I HATE being misunderstood
* I like music
* I like flowers
* I hate things being "unresolved"
* I use insults as a term of endearment
* I am overtly sexual because I don't know how else to interact
* I am comfortable in my own skin, happy with my body, confident being naked
* Exercise makes me feel better about myself. Stronger, fitter, happier, accomplished
* I need to celebrate my achievements, however "small". I need to acknowledge my efforts. Be proud of my accomplishments.
* Every second of every day, I am self parenting. I need to work on being a good mum.
* I need to be tidy and organised and conscious of where I put things, to save myself stress and time and effort.
* Opposites are NOT incompatible. Difference is not a bad thing
* You need to be nourished to grow (I could write a book on that one)
* People won't pay more than your asking price!
* Your subconscious believes what you tell it.Your subconscious is what truly guides your path, your auto pilot. It's a feedback loop. You record the tape, but you don't control the playback.
* I can't control everything. More importantly, I don't need too.
* Every choice, every action has a consequence
* I need to question what I have been taught/told and choose and define my world view. Thanks Peter Janetzski.

* I believe that rules create order
* I believe in the phrase "under authority"

Melancholy

I have a cold, and a case of the miseries.

I am thinking of posting all sorts of shit on facebook is counterproductive and further isolating, so I am gunna check the anonimity of blogging. I'm kind of hoping it doesn't get posted, but we'll see.